entry 8 ✶ july 22, 2025

i got sick twice this month because my red blood cells are revolting. i swear if i wake up with a sore throat even one more time this summer i don't care if my cells are pulling out the guillotine or whatever. we're going nuclear.

entry 7 ✶ jan 18, 2025

left my old job!!! i am free again. i'm starting a new job and finally have hope again...

entry 6 ✶ nov 11, 2024

i might have good news. i can't say it, though. and it's only good to me.

entry 5 ✶ nov 5, 2024

my birthday came and went... i really should have less online accounts everywhere. even with everything i have, i still don't really feel online. i think i'm just getting old. i should focus my time on things that matter--preferably not work. i need to work harder at applying to jobs if i'm so discontent with my current one... in a way, that's also just like making new online accounts: unbearable, but sometimes the situation requires it...

entry 4 ✶ oct 12, 2024

went to medieval times. eating rotissiere chicken kamayan-style in a room of people with paper crowns on is a trip. i love me a sword fight.

entry 3 ✶ sep 23, 2024

stayed at big bear this weekend with friends. the drive up made me predictably nauseas and had to stop at a gas station to throw up my morning breakfast of yogurt and fruit. but the rest of the day went smoothly, and the cabin we rented out had the most gorgeous windows facing the lake.

view outside our cabin

me eating cheetos at the table

we had worried about the air quality due to the san bernadino forest fires and brought two air purifiers from home to be extra careful. otherwise we kept safe mostly inside the house! after settling in, we took a rest before cooking dinner. i made black sesame seed rice krispies based on a recipe i found and it came out delicious - we used it to sing happy birthday to someone. then proceeded to paint some wine and shot glasses we got from the thrift store (to be baked later) to commemorate our time here.

the rice krispies, post-candles

our table the morning after

the next morning, some of us took a walk on a trail nearby until it got too hot. the rest of the morning was spent cooking breakfast, which we ate outside in front of the water. that afternoon, we made it to our scheduled pontoon boat rental and made some cocktails on the lake! we ate dinner outside at a bolivian restaurant and came back to set up the projector outside so we could sit in the jacuzzi and watch the nightmare before christmas. it was all so fun and lovely and i'm feeling melancholy now it's over.

bringing the breakfast outside

view from the pontoon

entry 2 ✶ sep 7, 2024

in an antique store, i pointed out some vintage boots to a friend and asked her if she's been wearing the pair she got when we went shopping at a vaquera store about a year ago. she said that she hadn't been wearing them as much as she'd like, then i said that i wore mine all the time. we both immediately looked down at my feet, which were normal sandals, and cackled at my bare toes.

entry 1 ✶ sep 5, 2024

the heatwave officially began today. i worked remotely from home with the ac blasting. my coworker texted me to say that our boss got everyone in the office some ice cream, even though i wasn't there.